The new me


So I have re done my hair it’s now red and black I have stared putting weight on again yay finally I am still under weight though not deadly underweight any more I don’t smoke any more haven’t had one since 1st April and I am feeling really good about it and I have now been 24 hours with out a coffee and I have also re found my faith and it’s stronger than ever I have started going back to church as well I can hold my head high and proudly say I am a member of the latter day saints as I now know that heavily father is proud to have me as his daughter


Sleeping beauty


My little sweetie is in hospital again it’s just seems never ending for us I got down in my knees last night and really prayed that everything would be ok for jade and I asked if heavenly father could make it that jade is never really sick again it’s the first time I have really got down and asked him for help I have prayed for help before though this time I asked for her to always be well and for nothing to serious to happen again any way just wanted to share a new photo of jade

When is it enough?

There is always one thing after another with my family and me, between Daniel the boys jade and myself there is always something wrong, we never get to catch  brake, like yeah i know there are people worse off than us out there, though it just becomes so much when its just one thing after another and no time in between them,

Since Sunday i have been in bed most of the day expect wen Jade has needed a feed or when the boys are home from daycare as i have been vomiting since Sunday night and just feeling really nauseous during the day 

then yesterday i speak with my doctor and because I’ve been having a lot of problems down there with hemorrhaging and pain hospital done tests and sent them to my doctor I have a tumor in my uterus they don’t know if it’s cancerous or not they have moved my gyni appointment up to next month now and the doc is talking about taking everything out…

Its just never ending 😦


Im so sorry that i have been missing in action,


SO much has been happening i havent really had time to sit and make a post plus i have also been lazy and  i am sorry for that,


Well where do i begin,

I have started going back to church again, as now i have re quit smoking, im still trying to stop the coffee though its really hard… Though my class at church has asked me to teach a class next Sunday about baptism im really nervous about it as i dont really know how to “teach” though i am sure if i ask heavenly father for guidance he will show me how or the spirit will guide me.



Jade is now on medication for her seizures she has Focal Dyscognative Seizures So at least now we can help stop them, she is on 2ml tegradol (sorry about spelling) morning and night, so far i havent noticed any more though the neurologist said it wont fully work for another 4 to 6 weeks,