Here is my newest painting I don’t know why I decided to put a big black whole in the middle of it, maybe because I feel like I’m missing something in my life I really don’t know to be honest
Though any feed back would gladly be appreciated
I’m having a pretty down today I feel so overwhelmed like everything is getting to me.
I have been up since 4:30am its now 4:25pm and I’m just in a mood I have been all day and have no idea why. I have taken my morning meds plus 2 extra 25mg seriquol tablets and a 5mg Valium and I’m still feeling really depressed……
I had so much I wanted to do today like get out into the garden and plant my marygold seeds. Also wanted to add more veggies into the garden that I first have to dig up.
Though after getting up and cleaning the kitchen folding washing dealing with Dom etc I just really can’t be bothered doing anything. My motivation has gone.
Jordan is heading out to a mates place tonight once dom is in bed and asleep…. I can’t even seem to bring myself to get something out for dinner
I’ve started on a second painting and I honestly think my 5 year old could do better…. Things never turn out like they seem in my head. I do find the painting dies help destress a little though I’m pretty sure I don’t have an artistic bone in my body :'(:'(:'(
I feel like going back inside the deep hole that I crawled out of as things never seem to stuff up like they do now
I have an appointment to see my case manager in Tuesday might be good to speak to her though I’m scared if I open right up that they will re admit me again I know my meds need to be upped as I know they are not string enough
I just don’t understand why things seem so negative now…..
daily thoughts of Sarah
I must say that what someone says to you can effect you in different ways. I’m a total hypocritical person with this as I honestly don’t think before I speak therefore I don’t think about the impact that my words can have on a person….
The good old saying “sticks and stones may break my bones, though names will never hurt me”
I think that it is incorrect And I am somewhat guilty of this to. I know for a fact some things that I have said have really hurt the people I have said then to. And the same goes for other people with what they have said to me
I guess you must always be mindful of what you say to another person as some words can hurt and cut deep like a knife through butter
Though at the end of the day it comes down to the golden rule
Treat others how you would like to be treated
daily thoughts of Sarah
SO i guess i should of posted this yesterday so there was no hurt feelings,
I deactivated my Facebook, so i no longer have it, i didn’t go out and delete any one, Facebook seems to be causing a lot of problems so i just deactivated it so it wouldn’t cause any more problems, i did put a post up yesterday stating that i was going to be deactivating it though i am guessing not everyone got to see it
At the moment i just dont need the drama i have so much going on i need t get on top of first maybe one day i will turn it back on though until then it is staying off